You know sometimes when you feel like everyone is mad at you..and for some reason they are...well, I feel like everyone whom I used to hang out with...specifically my roomates are all mad at me...because the new girl that moved in is someone that I cannot tolerate and I told her in her face in front of everyone that I thought she was fake at times and that I dont like the way she is...SOMETIMES (key word). Anywho, now that the girl has moved in, I dont feel bad about what I said because I wasnt friends with her in the first place and I was being honest at the moment. So what I didnt notice the black eye on her face or the bruises in her arm because she had problems with her boyfriend, but Im not going to apologize for being honest. Although i was in a cranky mood at the time but Im not going to use that excuse to make myself look good.

Anywho...so I havn't been home because we have no gas or hot water in my house and I already took a few cold showers but Ive been hanging out with my new found friends after a hard day's work, I dont feel like being home with them...soOoO..especially when Cassi whom I considered my friend is being a little bitch...soOoo I choose not to sleep at home until I can have a nice hot shower.

Everyone is also "dissapointed" in me for taking up cigarettes...but thats another story... ::sigh::

So Monday night was a great night..although people tell me that I was doing crazy stuff..and ofcourse, me not knowing what happened, makes it all too funny for me. I remember we were suppose to go to the movies except we never made it and bought a large bottle of 99 Berries...in which we finished out of the four of us. We smoked and drank some more and after my 6th shot, thats when all the craziness happened...errr..where to start. They say I was on the phone with Derek crying for an hour and when Nolla told me to get off the phone, I ended up fighting her and crying hysterically. To top it off, I feel bad cuz Maurice (aka "My Chef"), this guy that I've been hanging out with alot lately was there and Nolla tells me that he said "he was done" cuz Im always mentioning him when he's around or on the phone...whatever.

Then Maurice ended up driving me home after throwing up in the street and he took care of me...then as soon as I got home, thats when I kept asking Maurice to sleep over and I wouldnt stop following him, and all he wanted to do was go home..mind you he's drunk out of his mind as well. So Cassi tells me to take a shower and I find myself in the shower with all my clothes on...weird right. The whole time after im following Maurice all over Cassi's room telling him to go to bed when all he says is that all he wants to do is GO HOME. Then Cassi tells me to go to my room and so I do, just to get right back out and follow Maurice while he waits for a cab. So for the last time, Cassi tells me to go to my room and I went to bed...

I wake up feeling all shitty...throwing up but I still trooped myself to work, only to be sent home after 30 minutes of non-stop throwing up since I got there...it was a great night I tell you...

Derek Allen Grady Jr. is such an asshole!!! For someone who thinks he is such a man, he isnt. I invite him to come with me to the Destiny's Child concert, which was freakin awesome by the way, to have a good time and appreciate the group because we both enjoy their music. Mind you, I have not seen the guy in 2 months and ofcourse, I had high expectations for this weekend's visit. I thought that we could just forget about our differences and what happened between us to avoid any unecessary arguments...wrong! Yes, I understand that he did not bring up anything of the sort while he was here, instead, all he did was laugh and criticize the way my life has changed and the habits that I've taken in. I guess he expected me to stay as the sweet and innocent Reinalyn he met three years ago.

The problem is that I am a very capable independent young woman and everything that I have been doing that I consider "entertaining" is hilarious to him. By entertaining, I mean drinking, hanging out, and smoking weed (occasionally, but who doesnt). Why is it when all I do is work everyday, either at the hotel, the restaurant, or both and all Im doing is taking advantage of my leisure time. Cant a girl just live her college years without having to be criticized for what she considers is having fun??? And to think, all I wanted was too enjoy the weekend without receiving unecessary sarcasm...but again, I was wrong.